If you know me in real life and have found this blog, please honour my wishes and don't read on. I need this place to freely write my feelings to help me to heal and if you're reading, I'll censor myself. I have no way of knowing who is reading so all I can do is trust you to honour my wishes. Thank you.

(this doesn't apply to any of my fellow mums of angels I've been lucky enough to meet in real life)

Tuesday, July 26, 2011


When Matilda died and getting through a day felt like an impossible task I didn't think about what it would be like almost two years down the track - I couldn't fathom making it to here. And here I am and the pain can still come from nowhere, take my breath away, and have me in tears.

'Before' seems like so long ago now. Today a song came on the radio that was big the summer before our wedding. Only just over 2 years ago but the person I was then just seems so young and unhurt looking back. It made me cry.

Baby girl we still miss you as much as ever. Mummy xx