Sunday, September 23, 2012
Arrived safely last Tuesday 18th September. She is perfect and we are overjoyed. Came home on Saturday and her big brother Max seems to be adjusting well so far (though he's still got two doting grandparents here spending lots of time with him). Emotionally I did OK until just before the c-section and the sense of relief once she was delivered was there again though not quite as overwhelming as when Max was delivered. The tears for Matilda didn't really start until the day before we were coming home and it really started to sink in we were taking this little girl home when we never got to bring Matilda home. As so many things with rainbow babies, the happy is intermingled with the sad. Last night our neighbours came over with their little girl and her and Max played while we passed Maggie around and sat on the deck and ate dinner. Life is good. But we still miss you and love Matilda - that won't ever change.
Thursday, September 13, 2012
So we're counting down to Tuesday when this little one is arriving (bar nothing happening before then). My third pregnancy and it's been the most 'normal' - for the first time I made my last scheduled ob appointment. And about this time three years ago we found out Matilda had BWS. I still look back and can't believe everything she and we went through. But it was real - the urn next to my bed and photos tell me that. Matilda - we love you and miss you.