If you know me in real life and have found this blog, please honour my wishes and don't read on. I need this place to freely write my feelings to help me to heal and if you're reading, I'll censor myself. I have no way of knowing who is reading so all I can do is trust you to honour my wishes. Thank you.

(this doesn't apply to any of my fellow mums of angels I've been lucky enough to meet in real life)

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

The Worst Day of my Life

This time two years ago, we'd learnt our little girl was very very sick and it just got worse and worse. I can't believe we had to watch our baby slip away from us and all the best doctors and medical help couldn't save her.

It feels strange to be going about my life as normal today but otherwise I think I just sit here and relive that awful day and cry.

Matilda - I love you and miss you and I'll be thinking about you today but that's nothing new, I think about you every day.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Butterflies and Elephants

My neighbour gave me a card and it made me cry. Sophia (her four year old) told her Matilda is in heaven chasing butterflies and elephants. I hope so.

Two years ago she was here and alive for what now seems like the blink of an eye.