If you know me in real life and have found this blog, please honour my wishes and don't read on. I need this place to freely write my feelings to help me to heal and if you're reading, I'll censor myself. I have no way of knowing who is reading so all I can do is trust you to honour my wishes. Thank you.

(this doesn't apply to any of my fellow mums of angels I've been lucky enough to meet in real life)

Tuesday, October 30, 2012


My dear sweet Matilda - I wish you were here and we were trying to get you into bed after too much cake and excitement. I wonder what you'd be like - what your voice would sound like, your laugh, what colour your hair would be, and what you'd feel like in my arms. I hope you're up there looking down and knowing that our tears today are only because we love you and miss you. 4 days wasn't long enough and never will be. xx