If you know me in real life and have found this blog, please honour my wishes and don't read on. I need this place to freely write my feelings to help me to heal and if you're reading, I'll censor myself. I have no way of knowing who is reading so all I can do is trust you to honour my wishes. Thank you.

(this doesn't apply to any of my fellow mums of angels I've been lucky enough to meet in real life)

Sunday, May 1, 2011

18 Months

Yesterday you should have been 18 months old. Today I looked around the park and wondered what you would have looked down. I'll never know and always wonder. I don't know how many ways there are to say it but I love you and miss you and always. My sweet baby girl Matilda. Love your Mum.


  1. My Ava should have been 18 months old a few weeks ago too and I found this a hard time. Some may what ifs and so few answers. Sending much love to you and floaty kisses to beautiful Matilda. xx

  2. Thinking of you and Matilda.

    I just passed Acacia's 19 month anniversary. Sometimes I wonder if/when I'll forget - and I could see that maybe someday in the busy-ness of life I might miss the anniversary date - but I know that, of course, I'll never my daughter.

    Much love to you.

  3. I'm right there with you. Thinking good thoughts for you and your family now and always.

  4. I wish she was there with you in the playground making you chase her left and right. This must be so wrenching. I think we will remember our babies all through our life, and especially remember them for all their milestones, the ones they should have crossed.

    It is so hard really.

    P.S. I wanted to state this somewhere, so in case you are in the mood for it, there is something for you on my blog, but no pressure whatsoever...

  5. Maddie, just wanted to swing by and thank you for the very empathetic comments you recently left me on my blog.