If you know me in real life and have found this blog, please honour my wishes and don't read on. I need this place to freely write my feelings to help me to heal and if you're reading, I'll censor myself. I have no way of knowing who is reading so all I can do is trust you to honour my wishes. Thank you.

(this doesn't apply to any of my fellow mums of angels I've been lucky enough to meet in real life)

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Six Months

Six months ago today you came into this world. We had so many things we wanted to do with you - watch you learn about this world and love you everyday. We still do love you everyday but instead of watching you learn about the world, we're trying to learn how to live with this pain as part of our lives. I wish it had all been different and we were today talking about how fast six months had passed and marvelling at how big you were. Instead it's been the hardest and longest six months I've I had to survive. I try to remember all the happiness you bought us but sometimes that's hard - I hope in time the good memories will shine brighter than the awful ones.

Matilda - we love you and always will. xx


  1. 6 months already. Thinking of your beautiful Matilda and you.

  2. What a wonderful prayer that the good memories will outshine the bad ones. xo

  3. Today I am sharing the same feelings with you for my son Eren.It has been long and dark 6 months for me.I hope Eren and Matilda both celebrate their 6th month together in the heaven right now.
    Many hugs...

  4. 6 months...thinking of you Maddie with much love. (sorry this is a little late) XO I hope your good memories outshine the bad ones too.

  5. thinking of you and your husband, and of maddie.

    hugs xx

  6. Lots of love sent your way.

    Thinking of all four of you and and wishing you happy thoughts.

  7. Maddie, I sadly know how you feel. As always, I'm thinking of you guys.