Is this the case for others? How do you deal with it?
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Before this happened I would've imagined the overwhelming sadness would be the most difficult emotion to deal with. But now I'm here it's the constant anxiety I find most difficult. I have constant feeling that I've forgotten about something unpleasent coming up, racing heart, restlessness, etc. It seems odd to me because it's already happened. The thing I was most worried about and wouldn't even think about as a possibility has happened - my baby died. Yet I feel much more anxious now than I ever did during my pregnancy. I don't even think I felt like this before scans even though they only ever seemed to bring more bad news rather than reassurance.