Matilda - last time we were here you were alive and I spent the weekend hoping you were going to be OK. Thinking to myself 'you have OK - I can't deal with the alternative'. And now 6 months later I'm here trying to deal with the alternative. I hope you're here with me. I love you as much as ever.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
A Change of Scene
A couple of times my counsellor has bought up the fact she thinks the ocean and nature are healing. As part of this we agreed I was going to try and get out and walk the dog each day. Since then it's been really hot so I haven't been. But we are spending the weekend on one of the bay islands and I have a view of water. I think it is healing. Maybe we'll try and get out of town more often while I try to do the impossible - heal from the loss of my child.